Future doors

I'm married. I'm not in school for the first time since age 5 . . . or is it age 4? I live in a house with a yard. I guess I'm an adult now.

And so, I'm thinking about having a child and sealing this grown up deal. No one can know what life is like with children when you don't have any. I'm not even going to try to guess. Still, it's something I want out of life. I imagine it would open the door on a deeply satisfying way of life.

On the other hand, there is so much more I want on this side of the door. I met a man on a bus once who told me that I should go on a month long backpacking trip without delay. I still haven't done that yet. There are so many places to visit, ways of life to observe. So many places to go where I wouldn't take a small child. The doors to those places would be closed to me forever.

There will always be things in life you cannot achieve. The problem is knowing when to give up.

Maybe for now I should just get a cat. But in the next few years, who knows?